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Random thoughts
Jun. 23rd, 2008 09:06 amUgh. After I've just finished a story as long and time-taking as Iron & Irony, what happens? Naturally, I have another fic idea. This one, as ideas go, is completely cracked, but I think I've managed to turn it into a semi-serious story anyway. I can't write stuff that's just pure parody. I'm much too angsty and serious for that. So, I spent most of the night writing fic, again. And I wake up too early and open my laptop and here it is, waiting, and I just have to tweak it some more. Come on, tell me this isn't an addiction. It is. But at least it has less side-effects than smoking or drinking or something like that. I'll post the first chapter soon, I think.
Since I've got no RL friends to talk to about my fic (because I don't talk to them about my fic), I could babble about it a bit more here, just in case someone accidentally reads this. It's funny, the relationship I have with my fic. On one hand, I'm proud of every finished story and love them all, they're my babies, and if someone criticizes them too harshly, I become very defensive. On the other, I'm completely prepared to say that they're all just crap, pointless, badly written and stupid, and on some level, I'm just ashamed of the stuff. Mostly because it's always hurt/comfort, always about characters getting hurt, which I think is plain weird. And because half the time I look at it, I keep finding typos and staring at the grammar, at one preposition here or there and knowing that they can't be right, because even though my English isn't horrible, it's not native either, and there are mistakes, I can't help that. Though if I wasn't ESL, I guess I'd never get anything written and posted. I'm a complete perfectionist IRL. When writing fic, I can use my non-native English as an excuse to myself: "it doesn't have to be perfect, because it's not your first language. You can make mistakes, it's OK, it's impressive enough that you can write this stuff at all."
So, what I'm trying to say is, I've got a very mixed attitude towards the stuff I write. Sometimes it's annoying. Right now, though, I'm on such a writing spree that I don't think all that much. I just write and have fun, because that's why I write. I'm not trying to create pieces of art. I'm not even trying to create entertainment. I'm just having fun, and if someone likes it, that's just a wonderful side-effect. :)
Since I've got no RL friends to talk to about my fic (because I don't talk to them about my fic), I could babble about it a bit more here, just in case someone accidentally reads this. It's funny, the relationship I have with my fic. On one hand, I'm proud of every finished story and love them all, they're my babies, and if someone criticizes them too harshly, I become very defensive. On the other, I'm completely prepared to say that they're all just crap, pointless, badly written and stupid, and on some level, I'm just ashamed of the stuff. Mostly because it's always hurt/comfort, always about characters getting hurt, which I think is plain weird. And because half the time I look at it, I keep finding typos and staring at the grammar, at one preposition here or there and knowing that they can't be right, because even though my English isn't horrible, it's not native either, and there are mistakes, I can't help that. Though if I wasn't ESL, I guess I'd never get anything written and posted. I'm a complete perfectionist IRL. When writing fic, I can use my non-native English as an excuse to myself: "it doesn't have to be perfect, because it's not your first language. You can make mistakes, it's OK, it's impressive enough that you can write this stuff at all."
So, what I'm trying to say is, I've got a very mixed attitude towards the stuff I write. Sometimes it's annoying. Right now, though, I'm on such a writing spree that I don't think all that much. I just write and have fun, because that's why I write. I'm not trying to create pieces of art. I'm not even trying to create entertainment. I'm just having fun, and if someone likes it, that's just a wonderful side-effect. :)
